Saturday, November 20, 2010

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I realize I am starting to get complacent in certain things that I have set out to do. Things I have set out to achieve within this year and so forth.
Have things gotten too comfortable for me?
Have I lost that desire to chase my dreams (whatever) it may be?

I really do not know! :P
I have been really annoyed in the past 2 weeks with myself. Questioning and asking myself questions that I put aside if I end up unable to answer myself. The choices and decisions we make is entirely held upon us. We can decide to allow things to remain as it is or make a change for the better. But the thing is, can you see the better that has yet to come? People are at times looking at the present, at what helps make us feel good and contented NOW rather than TMRW.

TMRW never comes unless you go through TODAY. hmmm...stupid phrases..haha im gettin confuse thinking bout this phrase :P

Im unable to decipher where my attention should lie? Where my priorities lie? Things seems confusing at times and I am feeling a lil lost. Hahaha but im not emo-fied lost. HAHAHA im weird i know :P

Will I break this cycle of thoughts in the upcoming week? I will not let this confusion stand. I will go thru my coaching materials to get back on track. Well at least I have to touch them first! HAHAH its been 2 months since i opened the ICA website.

I need to get back into perspective. Need to re-focus. Life is a gift. Time is gold. If I do not make full use of it. I will not get back time that was lost. I want to be able to say, "I do not need to go back in time to relive anything again. I have achieved whatever I need." HAHAHA da concept is good. But it is easier said than done.

I am starting to get emotionally involved with someone. Hmm, a part of me knows its not what i want. Things do not seem right. But it seems now as the more I want to avoid or get away from it, the more I feel I want it. its annoying... -.- I miss eating chicken rice.

To end this...i have just been rambling in this post. Needed to put thoughts into words and BLAH! :P

Lalala photos:

Old & New

7am morning sky outside my window =.=


My "40-year old wife"


A friend who is turning his back on his home country :P


Two old compatriots that exceeds others :)