-.-

I realize I am starting to get complacent in certain things that I have set out to do. Things I have set out to achieve within this year and so forth.
Have things gotten too comfortable for me?
Have I lost that desire to chase my dreams (whatever) it may be?

I really do not know! :P
I have been really annoyed in the past 2 weeks with myself. Questioning and asking myself questions that I put aside if I end up unable to answer myself. The choices and decisions we make is entirely held upon us. We can decide to allow things to remain as it is or make a change for the better. But the thing is, can you see the better that has yet to come? People are at times looking at the present, at what helps make us feel good and contented NOW rather than TMRW.

TMRW never comes unless you go through TODAY. hmmm...stupid phrases..haha im gettin confuse thinking bout this phrase :P

Im unable to decipher where my attention should lie? Where my priorities lie? Things seems confusing at times and I am feeling a lil lost. Hahaha but im not emo-fied lost. HAHAHA im weird i know :P

Will I break this cycle of thoughts in the upcoming week? I will not let this confusion stand. I will go thru my coaching materials to get back on track. Well at least I have to touch them first! HAHAH its been 2 months since i opened the ICA website.

I need to get back into perspective. Need to re-focus. Life is a gift. Time is gold. If I do not make full use of it. I will not get back time that was lost. I want to be able to say, "I do not need to go back in time to relive anything again. I have achieved whatever I need." HAHAHA da concept is good. But it is easier said than done.

I am starting to get emotionally involved with someone. Hmm, a part of me knows its not what i want. Things do not seem right. But it seems now as the more I want to avoid or get away from it, the more I feel I want it. its annoying... -.- I miss eating chicken rice.

To end this...i have just been rambling in this post. Needed to put thoughts into words and BLAH! :P

Lalala photos:

Old & New

7am morning sky outside my window =.=

My "40-year old wife"

A friend who is turning his back on his home country :P

Two old compatriots that exceeds others :)

Faith + Hope + Love

As I sat back leaning on my leather seat,

I look back on past memories in the form of my mobile phone.

Every glimpse of the pictures I saw when I scrolled it back and forth brought back a dozen old memories.

Memories of smiles and sweets.

Where did that smiles disappear to?

Have everything turned cold?

Everyday = Brand new day

New day = New memories

So let's try looking at a brand new day being the wonderful gift as it is.

Out with the old and in with the new ")

Hey 2010

Hey ya'll!

Back to my blog after abandoning it for like 4 months!

Anyways it not like i have any active readers :P

so chill only..

Let me update you on my life in the past 4 months:

I have officially graduated as of Dec 22nd 2009, but my graduation ceremony will be on the 6th of July 2010,
MARK YOUR CALENDAR'S PPL!
hehe jus jkss..
ive got a full set of graduation gear ready:
Sf's shirt
hun's tie
vivi's cologne

At the start of Jan 2010,
I joined HSBC on an internship fr 3 months.
And it just came to an end last week.
A glimpse and it has already been 3 months.

I have also started to take up a coaching course.
Alot of ppl in my field of study have all gone ahead
with professional papers like CPA.
Well I am the odd one out taking up coaching,
But well,
it is the road less taken.

I am also taking up chinese classes
to help improve my ability to listen and write
basic Mandarin. This are the things I NEED
to do in order to realise my Exchange overseas.

Short term goals:
1) Swimming consistently
2) Catch up with my Tele classes
3) Continue self learning for Chinese
4) Catch up with guitar self learning

(At the back of my head, I would really wish she could come
That night, it felt ever so real, that smile, that voice,
Argh... hate dreams!

Exams are overrrrrr....

hopefully everything went well!

if it is...

I am officially a graduate!!!

I really miss home lately...

I miss my parents....

I miss my sis so much...

I miss my grandma...hehe thts surprising :P

What has been new since exams are over?

1) I've got a new job as a dish washer at a restaurant

2) Met up with Wai Yan before she heads to her

illustrious traineeship in Melbourne..

she is living the dream!!!

Melbourne with her own suite and also US NYC babye!

3) Went to snap some pictures at the

Adelaide Botanical Gardens

4) Feasting on Vietnamese food

5)Hoping for a new 50MM 1.8 Nikkor lense

6)Ultimate bumming to the max

7) Feeling like visiting my relatives in Melbourne

8) Been looking for a good TN for next year to China

What to do for this coming weeks?

1) Cycling

2) Gym..

neeed inspirasi..stay too far away

3) Hahndorf

4) Hallet's Cove

5) Adelaide Hills

6) Barossa Valley

7) Driving range

8) Basketball

Since the exams have been over..

I am feeling so unmotivated and lack of drive..

hehe it sucks

"The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.“

Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computers

Once upon a time in China....

There was a farmer which attend to his harvest daily. On a beautiful morning in spring, he went out to the field and attended to his harvest like usual. He plucked, weeded and fertilized. He was taking opportunity of the good weather and good surroundings. As a result, the crops that grew during the season was FANTASTIC.

One day.... a gossiping neighbour saw this good harvest and batch of grains.

The neighbour said: Hey farmer! Looks like the you got a good batch and it looks marvelous.

The farmer replied cooly: Oo it is alright.

Next season, the rain started pouring and pouring NON STOP. The farmer went out to the field to attend to his crops like he usually does daily. No matter how much he tried and tried, he could not do anything about it as his fields were flooded and the harvest died.

The neighbour gossiply came over to talk to the farmer.

The neigbour said: Oh! Too bad farmer my friend. Looks like your crops are not doing too well. The rain totally destroyed it!

The farmer said: Oh!Really? its alright.

After that, a few days later, the farmer's son, Y-Han was out to attend to the plantation with his father, the farmer. The son slipped on wet mud and fell. The impact of it caused the boy to hurt his arm. The son has always been the most helpful person on the farm aside from the animal helped used for plowing or others.

The gossip neighbour came out and said to the farmer again:

Oh! Too bad farmer my friend. I guess with your son hurt now, your crops will be affected. You have now one less hand helping you out. It is gonna be a tough time for you ahead.

The farmer replier: Oh! Really? It is alright.

So readers...

Have you guessed wad is the meaning behind this story??

Like in the story,
The farmer was not able to control the rain and
the fact that his son hurt his arm.
He responded cooly because he did not
remained with those as excuses that he could not achieve a good result in his crops.
Instead, he played down those problems and look ahead.
When the opportunity came to grow
his crops in Spring,
He took full use of it and grew a good harvest.


In our lives,
opportunities and instances will come knocking on our door.
We should learn to control what can be controlled
and learn to let go of what you cannot control.
If this opportunity is within your reach,
go all out for it.
If something is not within your reach,
learn to let go and move on.

Happy exams =)